In no hurry …
I spent a lifetime (or two) getting to this place – the good, the bad and the indifferent have all had their respective influences upon my life. But, the time has come for me to find a safe outlet – a quiet corner in which to vent, give voice to and reflect upon my own personal evolution.
I have always kept copious notes, in reference to my life, and the lives of those I love, but lost all documentation in a Texass flood, many years ago. That was a devastating time. There was so much of me, in those pages, lost, that I shudder to think of the feelings, thoughts, perceptions, and emotions, of those moments, which can never be reclaimed. I stopped writing, for quite some time, after that. I lost a lot in that flood, and I am not only referring to the material things (although the loss was substantial). I consider the events, during that time, to have been profoundly life-altering ...
Parts of me died, back then.
I’m re-awakening …
This, for me, is good enough reason to begin this very personal, revealing expedition into the ‘blogging world.’
The time has come for recording what my failing memory cannot, and hoping that discs and separate hard drives can preserve what paper could not.
All I ask is that you read me with an open mind, and an empathetic heart.
This will, at times, be a disturbing, dark reflection upon my life – that I hope will give insight and inspire you to feel, along with me.
However, I am NOT a writer. I am just a woman who’s voice was silent for many years. That changed when I got angry.
So, come, take my hand … Let me show you the world through my eyes.
Tragedy is not realized without the pause, the minute in which one draws his breath and knows. All great spiritual breakthroughs are carried to us upon wings of silence. It is in silence that peace and war, in their highest manifestations, dwell, and it is in silence too that we become ourselves. The trick is: pain is an integral part of joy; pain is not to be minimized, escaped, or sought (the marks of an empty soul), it is simply to be acknowledged. Life is change, hence, life is a perpetual death and birth as we let go of our old to create our new. Change is to be embraced; change might be painful, but the general point to be made: pain is an integral part of joy.
My thoughts reading your paragraph.
“Growth of happiness. Near to the sorrow of the world, and often upon its volcanic earth, man has laid out his little gardens of happiness; whether he approaches life as one who wants only knowledge from existence, or as one who yields and resigns himself, or as one who rejoices in a difficulty overcome – everywhere we will find some happiness sprouting up next to the trouble. The more volcanic the earth, the greater the happiness will be – but it would be ludicrous to say that this happiness justified suffering per se.” Nietzsche — Human, All too Human
“All great spiritual breakthroughs are carried to us upon wings of silence.” … “and it is in silence that we beome ourselves.” Pierre, your thoughts, here, are very eloquently articulated. I find a beauty in those words, as I absolutely have found them to be true in my life, as well.
I to, have known great pain, abysmal sorrows, life-altering tragedies, uplifting joy and a deeper love and appreciation, because of them – I embrace them all. There is a certain freedom in that.
Thank You … for your voice, and the quote.
“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.” Gibran Khalil Gibran
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